wants

when i was about 16 i started a journal where i just listed all the things i'd ever want to do or be. whenever i think of something else i wanna do i just add it to the list. it's been fun to look back and see what i've accomplished and then there are some things that i'm like- "uh . . . why would i wanna do that?" ha ha anyways just thought i'd share some things i've done and have yet to do.

•  laugh so hard it hurts
• feel good about the decisions i'm making
• dance til i feel like fainting
• jump in big puddles
• be more forgiving
• know what it feels like to be in love
• go to a fortune teller
• wear a tutu [thanks michelle!]
• go out one night wearing extreme makeup- just for fun
• paint
• go to the circus
• marry my best friend {later i have written: marry nate}
• jump rope
• attend the temple more often
• finish reading the bible
• own rubber rain boots
• go through the temple for myself
• be a poet

and now for some of the things i still want to do:

• travel by train (and just travel in general)
• learn to speak french, italian, and portuguese fluently
• visit at least all the temples in utah
• learn how to crochet
• become a better cook
• go to new york times square on new year's eve
• serve a mission
• be able to sleep without my blanky [i'm getting there! :)]
• have motivation to work out and be more healthy
• go skydiving, surfing, parachuting, sailing, snowboarding, bungee jumping, and canoeing {i feel like those all kinda go together}
• ride in a hot air balloon
• become a sports fan
• be a better friend
• raise a family
• go to a broadway play
• climb the eiffel tower
• learn to drive a stick shift

there are so many other things i want to do/be/have, but it'd take to long too type them all up and you'd probably stop reading ha ha.

i think i feel like all my life i have been shy and insecure. so, some things that i have to constantly work on are being a little more brave, standing up for myself, and learning to love and accept myself, to choose to be happy, to not be afraid of what others think, and to trust myself more, to let go of regrets and defeat satan. but i think that's what life is kinda about- i don't think i will ever be completely satisfied with myself, but if i was i guess that would mean i was done trying to be better and that just doesn't seem right to me. i hope i will always have goals, wishes, desires, and a passion to learn new things.